Sunday, 29 May 2011
I've really missed writing our wee blog, but life has been hectic. Last weekend I went to Aberdeen to the SANDS Scottish network day, it was really interesting, The Child Bereavement charity did a presentation, it was fantastic.We met some great people and found some useful resources. The most exciting thing for me, is that I'm to be a media representative for sands in Scotland, I'll get some training - thank goodness. Finally I get to use my big gob and love of my own voice for something so worthwhile! On monday I did my parents story at the hospitals training that I had fought hard to be put in place - I stayed for the training and also found it interesting, I still think we can do a better job, more interactive and more use of bereaved parents, it was suggested we have a fathers story in the future. I asked Pug and to my surprise, he said he would do it.
Wednesday, 11 May 2011
Miss P is wearing her amazing springtime Molo onsie, I bought this for Archie and loved it so much had to hang on to it.
Sunday, 8 May 2011
This weekend has been so lovely, however as usual on special days I am ever aware of my darling's absence. I think back to the 1st bday without him - how hideous it was. I got ready for work, got into the car with Anne said 'it's my bday.....blub blub blub', that bday was supposed to be my 1st as a mum, my 1st time getting a card signed by my son, I was never to have a card from Alfie - of course I have my 2 beautiful ones, but always at the cost of losing my 1st wee man. I looked over at all my lovely sands mums and their babies at my party and thought....I love those women, life would be hell without them. I also thought had I not lost Alfie what a very different party this would be - what a very different life this would be......think of you everyday my wee man - life without you is a strange journey, love and mummy kisses to my 1st baby xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Friday, 6 May 2011
Thursday, 5 May 2011
I had to go into work today.....mornings are hectic trying to get out the house. I miss the kids during the day, but it passes so quickly. Last week I did 3 days and felt quite sad that by the 3rd morning Archie was shouting for Daddy when he woke. So I thought It'd be nice to have a picture of mummy and Sadie, however daddy took the photos and they are no that braw.